Some Thoughts On The Matter

 After a couple of semesters, my first year at FSU is finally over! While I am relieved to be done with my work for the semester (if you can call an English major's workload "work"), I have an odd sort of bittersweet feeling about it. Sure, I get to relax at home for about 4 months, and I'll hang with all my friends from home, but there is a sort of mourning I have for my freshman year experience at college. Oddly enough, I really fell in love with the Salley Hall dorm charm, despite what literally everyone else said about it. There's something very comfy and charming about the tight space, the walls crammed with decor, and the silly suitemate antics. After all, that was like a solid 20% of the fun I had this year- overhearing and eavesdropping on the lives of my suitemates. Well, really only one suitemate, Dev. The other one... Lin... remains a silent enigma. Who would've thought that the true "villain" of our suitemate experience wouldn't be th...

So this is a relatively new and odd phenomenon that I've started noticing more and more as people my age around me start musing about wanting kids and stuff... Obviously, I'm aware that the whole concept of baby fever is something that happens all the time to most people, but its just sort of odd hearing that kind of talk from people I know. I ended up doing some quick research on it, just because I was curious to see what the deal was and why more and more people have been starting to feel it. NBC News posited a few theories: Gender Roles  As a result of the socialization that many young girls experience in our culture, and the reinforcement of the idea that women should be mothers and caretakers, when young women start reaching a point of adulthood, they start to feel as if they are old enough to be supporting a family. Since they are told that having kids is "what women do", as soon as they start self-identifying more as "women" rather than teenage girls,...

MANWOLVES logo  For those who know me closely, the name MANWOLVES is immediately recognizable- whether it be from me constantly playing their songs in the car or from my persistent recommendation to listen to these guys from Chicago. MANWOLVES has got to be one of my favorite bands that I've had the pleasure to listen to over the years. I've been listening to these guys for almost 8 years by this point, and they have a special place in my heart as one of the first bands I found all by myself, that wasn't known by anyone else. Obviously, there's room for a joke to be made about "ooh behold how underground and niche my music is", but legitimately, when I had discovered their music, they had only published 5 songs, and each of them were BANGERS. So yeah, I was amongst their first 2000 listeners, which sounds... less impressive than I'd hope, but I promise it's a big deal. At least, it was to me. Anyways, fast forward to November 2023. As I was enjoying my...

 Hey! Even though I talked about it a lot in the first post, I wanted to keep writing about why I'm writing this blog. Obviously, my motivations were pretty clear: keep a consistent writing schedule and practice my comfort with long-term projects. But in reality, this is just the first big step for a larger plan for myself to become a better version of myself. For a long time, I wasn't really happy with myself as a person. Not in a "hating myself" way, but rather a "hating the way I currently am" way, if that makes sense. What bothered me isn't my core, but rather what I was expressing about myself in terms of potential and presentation. I hated how lazy and unproductive I was (and I suppose still am, for the moment).  A lot of this frustration came out of my perspective on myself as a writer. For as long as I can remember, I knew that writing and English was what I wanted to do with my life, since I first started writing short stories in my first grade ...

 Hello!      I think I've rewritten this first post on my blog at least 3 times now. Starting a new project is always daunting, but for whatever reason, it always seems to be particularly challenging for me. I've always struggled with motivation and commitment to working on projects, so this is no news to me. However, recently I've become a little more self-aware about this issue of mine, so I wanted to start a project that I would feel comfortable working on for an extended period of time, with no real quality control or main subject, but rather just an exercise in my ability to commit to something for a long time.     If it wasn't already clear, I'm starting a blog to work on this issue. I've started countless writing projects that I lose interest in within a few weeks, and this has really strongly negatively impacted my perspective on my abilities as a writer. I want to commit to posting at least two blog posts a week, starting today and ending on the sa...